Once again, music has accomplished its God ordained function of aiding the expression of my emotions. Of late, for several reasons, my emotions have been somewhat flat…I feel as though I haven’t really been feeling much of anything.
But now, the playing of and listening to music has stirred my heart to a more healthy place. As I sit listening to Fernando Ortega sing “Let All Mortal Flesh” (a song I played on my violin a few days ago under the title “Coventry Carol”), I am moved to gratitude and love for my Savior. My heart begins to beat slightly faster; warmth overcomes me; a slight smile curls my lips; I can sense my eyes brighten and my affections rise.
Moreover, I have been able to express a number of emotions over the past few days that I have experienced over the past several months, but have previously not been able to express. Unexpressed emotions damage my heart. I have been able to articulate love to my wife more clearly. I have also been steady and gentle with a needed rebuke for which she thanked me most genuinely.
And I have felt hot anger. This I do not enjoy like the others, but the expression, the exhaustion of it has been refreshing. Hopefully, it is well-received.
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